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​"What makes you not want to kill yourself? Being within the subaltern pain of this society gives us backstage VIP access to the deep spiritual fruits of this plane. In this way, we are initiated into the timeless fight against alienation, against separateness. Through our encounters with satan we dialectically find the will of god. In resisting submission in our darkest moments and choosing to work from a place of love and regeneration, all forms of gate keeping and casual or defined class and caste systems absolutely are obliterated by the rule of law that is God’s infinite spirit and love. You’re underfoot a demon in furs at the mouth of Hell and we are in the great big panoply of the garden of eden where we dispel subaltern pain into the bliss that it already is because you picked us as a grounding transformer for your psychosexual anti-mommy hang-ups.

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Our spiritual and psychological warfare is the situationist breakdown of the symbolic order that identifies divergent and traumatized women as society’s eternally damned pathological victims. We are traumatized and exist with PTSD in the wake of hardcore forms of abuse and violence and chaos and destruction. 

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We exist with the ghosts of these experiences once we survive. When we go through these experiences something in us does change. The holy power of survival sharpens our inner eye, sharpens the violet fire within us that is both the electric power of the holy spirit and the hormonal and neurological mechanics of the fight flight flee and fawn response. Survival is automatic. This is the potency of consciousness as an eternally creative act. This is the imagination as an actual spiritual and psychological weapon. This is the convergence of spirit and matter. Matter is the memory light."